Now, I MUST begin by saying I have been blessed with many
people who love me and have prayed for me.
We are all God’s people and God loves all of us. I love everyone where they are in life
and I love them with a Godly love.
However, people are people and we are all imperfect. You see, for most of my life I have allowed
false guilt to plague my being and let some individuals speak less than kind to
me. I have been a people pleaser because
I thought that would make people like me more. I
have allowed thoughtless people to walk all over my heart.
My heart was bruised; my self-esteem lowered. I recall
looking in the mirror and saying to myself, “You are dumb and stupid. It is not surprising no one likes you!” I would go through life with this kind
of self-deprecating thinking.
I am thankful to share that there were three turning points
in my life recently where I allowed God to help me. The first was when I was hurting about a
reoccurring incident. I was praying and
asking why? I took my heart in my hands
and gave it to God to examine. I asked, “God
look into my heart and tell me what is wrong with me. I am the one at fault. Examine every aspect of my heart.” God showed me that I love and care for people. I have a strong desire to help people and I like to bring joy to people! I asked myself, “What is wrong with
that?” My response was, “Nothing! There is nothing wrong at all!” I realized beyond the humanness of life here
on earth there is nothing wrong with me.
I now can accept myself as I am.
That was a huge moment in time for me.
The next turning point was at a Women of Faith Conference
(WOF) in St. Louis . I had decided to attend because I wanted to
listen to the musicians sing and to the teachings of the authors. A speaker was dramatizing a situation that
occurred in her life. In fact, a similar
situation occurred in my life. The
likeness was that a woman was looking at herself in the mirror as I have
done. She was saying to herself, “You
are an idiot! You are ugly! Can’t you ever do anything right?", and the list continued. This WOF Woman pointed out a couple of
scriptures.
She continued that God loves us and we should love ourselves
even though we are only human. I was
sitting in my seat hoping no one would see the tears running down my
cheeks. This was a secret place in my heart
I shared with no one. I must say that it
is difficult for me to share this with you now, but everyone needs to know how
much God loves and cares for us. God wants us to have a healthy self-esteem.
The last turning point was joining Team National and making
the decision to work the business portion of the company. In addition, I began reading personal
development books by John Maxwell, Darren Hardy, Joyce Myers, Earl Nightingale,
Jim Rohm, and others. These authors
inspired me and I began to change my thinking.
I have a business coach and business partners who encourage me and believe in me.
After 2 years in the business I heard my wonderful husband
share this story with a friend. “For 30 years I have encouraged Teresa to stand
up to people who run over her. Teresa
has tried to stand up from time to time, but never with the right posture or
confidence. After building a Team
National business for 8 months, she has finally been able to stand up with
confidence, not caring what they thought!
She was free to say, “No” to people’s requests. This is the end of the false guilt!” Later, a friend remarks to me, “Teresa, I
really like being with you. You are a
lot of fun and you are so positive.”
“Who can put a price on that?!” I am thankful for all the challenges and
struggles; these are making me stronger every day. I am thankful for this awesome company!
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